I love my family.

"I do."
Those simple words are taken for granted these days. So few people keep the promises they make and often "family" is treated like a burden instead of a privilege.

I am already neck deep in the stresses and trouble of my work day, but I just wanted to take a moment to write down how much I love you. I have taken more time lately to review my life and the decisions I have made...and I have really felt like a failure. However, every time I think about you three I am filled with a sense of awe.
I do not know why people (like me) can justify taking such sweet blessings for granted. A rude gesture, an impatient remark, looks of disapproval...I have done these things so often to you and for so long that I honestly feel miserable when I think about it. I never want to be that man again. I never want you to feel like you have to earn anything from me. I want to give myself to you - all of my love, all of my time, all of my help - without any strings. I am YOUR resource free for the taking. I pray that God will provide me with enough wisdom and virtue that I can give you more than you need.

I can never erase what I have done or said in the past that has hurt you. But I can make sure I never do or say those things again.

I am different. I FEEL different and I hope this change is one you will notice. Not because I want you to think better of me...but because I want you to feel loved by me, unconditionally.

I will sacrifice for you. I will. I will give up everything I have ever wanted for myself. I don't know how to do it yet. But I pray God will show me His way. HE IS SO GOOD AT IT!

I love you. I love you. I love you.

"Blessed are all who fear the LORD, who walk in his ways. You will eat the fruit of your labor; blessings and prosperity will be yours. Your wife will be like a fruitful vine in your house; your sons will be like olive shoots around your table. Thus is the man blessed who fears the LORD."
~Psalm 128:1-4